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In gloom
04:11
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When I dream, there is a place keeping me sane
Far away from everything, a place that cannot be explained
There is no love, there is no pain to feel
There is no light, there is no misleading
Every sin of mine falls off, I don’t know where to begin
I am standing on the outside, looking in
Holding a grudge against myself
For not feeling like them
It sounds kind of sad, but I really mean it
Still, sadness is my favourite feeling
I live in hell, my hell is gloom
I feel so blessed, but they say I’m doomed
When I dream, it’s not so bad when I’m in hell
I am not like everyone, none of them know me well
One hundred thoughts at once inside my head
And ninety-nine of them are more than sad
The awkwardness of being me feels so intense
I am standing on the outside, looking in
Holding a grudge against myself
For feeling comfortable in hell
Sometimes I hate myself for being me
I’m so far away from everything
And everyone, who tried to pull me out
Gave up trying, I’d have pulled them down
Sometimes I hate myself for being this cold
But I’m only losing patience with this world
Right away I close my eyes, return to hell
And I start to dream
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Good intentions
04:59
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I need resistance, I need the distance
I am addicted, to sleep and sickness
I feel afflicted, a vivid description
Of all the missed dreams, I never lived in
Of all the missed things, I lost while sleeping
How does love feel, what it’s like being close?
I dream loud, to protect myself from an overdose
What is life, when you never feel alive
When insecurities keep you inside
Is it too late to try
To feel the love that I’ve denied
Is it too late to die
For all the dreams I’ve kept inside
I’ve been living life just flowing with the stream
I’ve avoided to think, hid my feelings in my dreams
To relieve anxiety, I try to sleep
I can see the heaven is dying
All the good intentions, overwhelmed by my anxiety
I can feel the devil behind me
Getting closer when I sleep
Slowly killing all my dreams
I accepted this
All those moments that I’ve missed
I know you know I keep true feelings buried deep
I’m lost in between the past, the present
And my will to live, those thoughts are killing me
How does it feel to be alive, to be a part tomorrow?
I sleep alone, to protect myself from sorrow
Sometimes I hope that this is all a dream
One day I’ll wake up and understand my feelings
I accepted this
To relieve anxiety, I try to sleep
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Please let me go, I need time alone
To order my thoughts, to know that I’ve loved
It was not a dream
All the sleep I’ve lost, while I tried to keep
All those memories about how to feel
I don’t know why you said it’s alright,
But in truth your blue never looked like mine
I felt so confined, while there was still time
To realize your blue never looked like mine
As you hold my hand
I felt something I think
We dreamt about nothing and shared our sleep
All the plans we’ve planned, destroyed in one blink
It was time to bury them six feet deep
I don’t know why, we got stuck in old lies
Your blue will never ever look like mine
Do you see what I see
Do you have the same feelings
Do we share memories
Do our dreams have the same meaning
Maybe we perceive things differently, I mean
Everything you tried to keep maybe wasn’t good for me
We never tried to change, I know, we never will
After all we’re still the same, I know, we’re still
We tell ourselves we have moved on, but we stayed
‘Cause I know that we get scared
When our colours look the same
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I need to leave, there is a war inside me
Somewhere down my subconscious mind, sleep, sleep
I know that there is so much more
And I try to feel, but
I know that everything’s on hold, sleep, sleep
Every word I never said
And every battle that I never fought
I think of something else, try to pretend
I’m in a better place called the end
I know this time it’s different
This place seems cold
I know that no one has ever lived here
That’s what I’ve been told
Keep me from staring in the abyss
Save me from getting old
What if life is an illusion
And we were never born
Wide awake, it’s too late to remember
Everything is gone, I surrender
Getting closer to the end
Soon it’s over, so farewell
Hello darkness my old friend
Welcome to hell
Look at my life, and tell me that everything is fine
Look at my life, I am losing my mind I can not deny it
Look at my life, mountains in front of me, nothing behind
Look at my life, cause everything I did was a waste of time
Look at my life, tell me, how does it feel to be fine?
Look at my life, I’ve lost my mind I can not deny it
Look at my life, trying to hide it, I live for the night
Look at my life, the mountain in front of me, too high to climb
I took my life, but I’m waking up alive everytime
Look at my life, I will never fit in when I’m always sleeping
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Grey
04:26
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I meant the world to you I know
After all these years I simply disappeared
And I will never come back to you
The person I once was is dead now
I have always pushed you in the background
Gave you a million reasons to feel sad about
And everytime you told me that it hurts
All I did was just to talk it down I said I did not realize your pain
I was fully aware of what I did to you
Never told you what I really needed
Truth is, I only love myself
My heart turned black, white noise in my mind
Everytime we met, I became colorblind
Escape, my only option, you said stay
But I turned my life to grey
I’ll bury you, bury you alive with all those little pieces
A heart once like glass
Wake up, wake up, I hope you will wake up
You are not the first and you won’t be the last
It seems like you’ve been wasting
So many years on something that never had a future
I wish you could hurt me back let me feel what you feel instead
No matter when I tried to leave I saw that you could barely breathe
You’re missing me, I know I am what you need
I feel neither love nor hate it’s something in between
But something isn’t right, I feel it deep inside
I see myself heartbroken, those eyes have shed too many tears
All I ever wanted, all I ever needed
Is for you to understand, how much you really meant to me
I wish it was like before, but I know it will never be
The whole time I was sleeping and it was all a dream
I am wide awake now, and I realized how
Everything I dreamt, meant, I was you
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6. |
The moral sense
02:48
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hope is something I´ve lost
a long time ago,
but I did nothing wrong
I want to be alone, but don´t want to be alone
it´s hard to understand but nowhere feels like home
I´m stuck between dream and reality
it´s hard to describe, what I really feel
only sleeping has lost its meaning
this dream is going too deep
and I can not leave it
would you kill, would you die
would you save somebody´s life
would you hide, close your eyes
in dreams, there´s no in between
would you try, to survive
would you stay also in bad times
would you lie, turn to ice
in dreams, there´s no in between
would you die, would you kill
in dreams there´s no in between
there is you, there is me
we became everything
we never wanted to be
we never wanted to feel
left in between
so many years have been wasted
they made me believe I could make it
I could change it, I´m stuck in the past
and it´s hating me
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No one wants to be sad all the time
Except me in my mind, feeling broken inside
When I’m wide awake I’m useless and tired, silent and quiet
How many times have I lied to survive when I’m wide awake
You don’t know you’re in my dreams
And everything I dream belongs to me, I’m weak
You don’t know what to believe
The only thing I need is sleep to feel relieved, I’m weak
Nowhere is as distant and far as where I am right now,
The abyss of my heart when I’m wide awake
Being with someone is hard when you’ve never learned to talk,
I rather stay apart when I’m wide awake
You don’t know the reason why there is no end,
No matter at which point I am you don’t know how much I’ve cried
So don’t expect that I will answer when you’re asking me to die
Nothing inside of me is alive
I’m rejecting myself, desire slowly dies when I’m wide awake
I crucify truth, I’m sentenced to lie
Feelings have no more weight in my life when I’m wide awake
Every discomfort I fell into
The more I became lonely, the more insecure
This is a wasteland to us all and I’m the leader to our downfall
An endless spiral
The reason why I can’t stay awake
Is because I can not bear reality anymore
No one wants to be sad all the time
Feelings have no more weight in my life when I’m wide awake
Nothing inside of me is alive except me in my mind,
Feeling broken inside when I’m wide awake
Nowhere is as distant and far as where I am right now,
I rather stay apart when I’m wide awake
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Someone wants to be happy and kind breaking habits,
Designed by an unconscious mind when we’re all asleep
We’re strong and alive, defining the time
Honest and anytime ready to rise when we’re all asleep
The glow of darkness floods the eyes
Not a single beam of light in this never ending night
Only dreams, no wrong, no right
Everything that’s unrelated becomes one
Being free means being asleep
And feeling what everyone believes in
And letting them see how they need to be
And what they need to feel
To be able to see let everything go, there is no alone
To be able to dream what is known, let everything go, carry on
It’s not much what it takes to keep the curtains closed
A state of mind that was once supposed
To be the furthest of them all
Is finally reached and controlled by the deepest thoughts
From blindfolded to comfortably on hold
Somewhere is a place where it’s safe
And everything is okay, no more fear and no more hate
When we’re all asleep being alone but not separated
Talking does not mean suffocating when we’re all asleep
To be able to see let everything go, there is no alone
To be able to dream what is known, let everything go, carry on,
Let everything go, there is no return, just a tomorrow
Something inside of me is alive I’m accepting myself,
Desire slowly rises when you’re all asleep
I honour the truth, experience love
Feelings have more and more weight in my life
When you’re all asleep
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9. |
What love means
03:32
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If you ever try to love me
You will feel that I feel nothing
Everything I’ve said means one thing
You should better think about what love means
I have no expectations
Of this relationship
I just want to sleep and dream
And die when time has come
You have expectations
That I can’t fulfill
And I feel really bad for this
So I run away and isolate myself
And refuse any help
Who decides what’s wrong and right
I’m wasting time, yours and mine
I haven’t even tried to change my mind
I’m feeling happy being empty
What a beautiful ending
Constantly thinking about
Since I am twenty
I promise I’ll stay here
And do my best not to disappear
But I’m a lost cause
Inside a lost world
I swear to god, no
I swear to you I’m still a lost soul
If you love me you should sleep now
You will feel that I feel something
Everything I say I mean it
Only in your dreams I’m someone
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10. |
Daymare
03:10
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After all that we’ve been through
You said you would save me
Nothing happened, never believed it would hurt so badly
When I try to sleep, every dream goes deeper
Distance is growing between you and me
Everything is okay, nothing can hurt me now
I’ve been staying up for too long, I drown in
Daydreams, my remedy, my shelter, my own hell
Stay here, to save me from the pain they feed me
It’s too late to make me feel the same feelings
I felt back then, hurry up, take me in
It still hurts
Since you’re gone I’m fading out
Every dream gets clearer
Nowhere to go, no will to fight to walk on further
Time is slipping through my hands
I can’t feel my body, I can’t speak, I can’t think
There is fear, only fear
Tell me am I okay, tell me that I’m not hurt
I’ve been staying up for too long, I drown in
I’m so sick of feeling thoughts
Go to sleep, never leave
Overthinking fucking hurts
Stay awake, start to dream
I’ll come back, maybe someday
You have said, on that day
You have left, never came back to me
As you promised, I tried to change
But I couldn’t, I was honest
Other problems made me lonely
I’m staying up for too long, I’m lost in
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04:14
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I’m afraid, I’m not enough
What you need is not what I can give
I’ll never reach this ‘how you want me to be’
The perfect place does not exist
Days go by and I still bleed stitching up what I can’t fix
From cut to cut it’s death or dream
Worry is the knife that leaves those scars across my skin
This line between death and dream is paperthin
I’m tied to overthinking everything
I’m not enough and I’m so sorry that I am like this
It’s like I live for everyone but not for me
When I sleep I’m rather chasing other dreams
I’m throwing up as much I can, so I can breathe
I taste the pain right on my tongue, it helps me to speak
Just know that I will remember
Everything I’ve heard
Sometimes I laugh, but in the end I’m not okay
I promised you to love
But I don’t know how to feel
I just drift above when I try to sink
Just know that I will remember
That it’s not your fault
It’s all on me, I just pretend to be okay
I promised you true love but I don’t know how to feel
Everything just hurts when I try to think
Leave me forever when I fall asleep
Leave me forever, please don’t look back
Leave me forever when I fall asleep
Leave me forever, leave me forever
The pain underneath my skin turns my dream into a nightmare
My feelings have died here
I’ll bury everything underneath my skin
Turn my life into a nightmare
I get used to slowly dying with pain there is no worry
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I Saw Daylight Ulm, Germany
I SAW DAYLIGHT sind fünf Menschen, die nicht nur einen Proberaum, sondern auch ihr Leben miteinander teilen. Seit 2011 spielen ISD jede Show, die ihnen möglich ist: sowohl auf europaweiten Touren als auch im JUZE um die Ecke. ISD stehen für pathetische Authentizität fernab jedes Manierismus, die von ihnen live wie auf Platte ungehemmt gelebt wird und allen Zuhörenden spürbar ist. ... more
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