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by I Saw Daylight

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    1. In gloom
    2. Good intentions
    3. Your blue never looked like mine
    4. I will never fit in when I'm always sleeping
    5. Grey
    6. The moral sense
    7. Reasons why not to stay awake
    8. Reasons why not to kill myself when I’m alone
    9. What love means
    10. Daymare
    11. {}

    Release: 29 Oktober 2021
    DIY

    This 11-Track LP comes on selfmade CD and printed booklet.

    This piece was recorded by ourselves at Werkall
    and mixed and mastered by Janosch Riemann 2020/2021.
    All Songs by I Saw Daylight.
    Lyrics by Eugen Troschin.
    Artwork by Jessica Svartvit.

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1.
In gloom 04:11
When I dream, there is a place keeping me sane Far away from everything, a place that cannot be explained There is no love, there is no pain to feel There is no light, there is no misleading Every sin of mine falls off, I don’t know where to begin I am standing on the outside, looking in Holding a grudge against myself For not feeling like them It sounds kind of sad, but I really mean it Still, sadness is my favourite feeling I live in hell, my hell is gloom I feel so blessed, but they say I’m doomed When I dream, it’s not so bad when I’m in hell I am not like everyone, none of them know me well One hundred thoughts at once inside my head And ninety-nine of them are more than sad The awkwardness of being me feels so intense I am standing on the outside, looking in Holding a grudge against myself For feeling comfortable in hell Sometimes I hate myself for being me I’m so far away from everything And everyone, who tried to pull me out Gave up trying, I’d have pulled them down Sometimes I hate myself for being this cold But I’m only losing patience with this world Right away I close my eyes, return to hell And I start to dream
2.
I need resistance, I need the distance I am addicted, to sleep and sickness I feel afflicted, a vivid description Of all the missed dreams, I never lived in Of all the missed things, I lost while sleeping How does love feel, what it’s like being close? I dream loud, to protect myself from an overdose What is life, when you never feel alive When insecurities keep you inside Is it too late to try To feel the love that I’ve denied Is it too late to die For all the dreams I’ve kept inside I’ve been living life just flowing with the stream I’ve avoided to think, hid my feelings in my dreams To relieve anxiety, I try to sleep I can see the heaven is dying All the good intentions, overwhelmed by my anxiety I can feel the devil behind me Getting closer when I sleep Slowly killing all my dreams I accepted this All those moments that I’ve missed I know you know I keep true feelings buried deep I’m lost in between the past, the present And my will to live, those thoughts are killing me How does it feel to be alive, to be a part tomorrow? I sleep alone, to protect myself from sorrow Sometimes I hope that this is all a dream One day I’ll wake up and understand my feelings I accepted this To relieve anxiety, I try to sleep
3.
Please let me go, I need time alone To order my thoughts, to know that I’ve loved It was not a dream All the sleep I’ve lost, while I tried to keep All those memories about how to feel I don’t know why you said it’s alright, But in truth your blue never looked like mine I felt so confined, while there was still time To realize your blue never looked like mine As you hold my hand I felt something I think We dreamt about nothing and shared our sleep All the plans we’ve planned, destroyed in one blink It was time to bury them six feet deep I don’t know why, we got stuck in old lies Your blue will never ever look like mine Do you see what I see Do you have the same feelings Do we share memories Do our dreams have the same meaning Maybe we perceive things differently, I mean Everything you tried to keep maybe wasn’t good for me We never tried to change, I know, we never will After all we’re still the same, I know, we’re still We tell ourselves we have moved on, but we stayed ‘Cause I know that we get scared When our colours look the same
4.
I need to leave, there is a war inside me Somewhere down my subconscious mind, sleep, sleep I know that there is so much more And I try to feel, but I know that everything’s on hold, sleep, sleep Every word I never said And every battle that I never fought I think of something else, try to pretend I’m in a better place called the end I know this time it’s different This place seems cold I know that no one has ever lived here That’s what I’ve been told Keep me from staring in the abyss Save me from getting old What if life is an illusion And we were never born Wide awake, it’s too late to remember Everything is gone, I surrender Getting closer to the end Soon it’s over, so farewell Hello darkness my old friend Welcome to hell Look at my life, and tell me that everything is fine Look at my life, I am losing my mind I can not deny it Look at my life, mountains in front of me, nothing behind Look at my life, cause everything I did was a waste of time Look at my life, tell me, how does it feel to be fine? Look at my life, I’ve lost my mind I can not deny it Look at my life, trying to hide it, I live for the night Look at my life, the mountain in front of me, too high to climb I took my life, but I’m waking up alive everytime Look at my life, I will never fit in when I’m always sleeping
5.
Grey 04:26
I meant the world to you I know After all these years I simply disappeared And I will never come back to you The person I once was is dead now I have always pushed you in the background Gave you a million reasons to feel sad about And everytime you told me that it hurts All I did was just to talk it down I said I did not realize your pain I was fully aware of what I did to you Never told you what I really needed Truth is, I only love myself My heart turned black, white noise in my mind Everytime we met, I became colorblind Escape, my only option, you said stay But I turned my life to grey I’ll bury you, bury you alive with all those little pieces A heart once like glass Wake up, wake up, I hope you will wake up You are not the first and you won’t be the last It seems like you’ve been wasting So many years on something that never had a future I wish you could hurt me back let me feel what you feel instead No matter when I tried to leave I saw that you could barely breathe You’re missing me, I know I am what you need I feel neither love nor hate it’s something in between But something isn’t right, I feel it deep inside I see myself heartbroken, those eyes have shed too many tears All I ever wanted, all I ever needed Is for you to understand, how much you really meant to me I wish it was like before, but I know it will never be The whole time I was sleeping and it was all a dream I am wide awake now, and I realized how Everything I dreamt, meant, I was you
6.
hope is something I´ve lost a long time ago, but I did nothing wrong I want to be alone, but don´t want to be alone it´s hard to understand but nowhere feels like home I´m stuck between dream and reality it´s hard to describe, what I really feel only sleeping has lost its meaning this dream is going too deep and I can not leave it would you kill, would you die would you save somebody´s life would you hide, close your eyes in dreams, there´s no in between would you try, to survive would you stay also in bad times would you lie, turn to ice in dreams, there´s no in between would you die, would you kill in dreams there´s no in between there is you, there is me we became everything we never wanted to be we never wanted to feel left in between so many years have been wasted they made me believe I could make it I could change it, I´m stuck in the past and it´s hating me
7.
No one wants to be sad all the time Except me in my mind, feeling broken inside When I’m wide awake I’m useless and tired, silent and quiet How many times have I lied to survive when I’m wide awake You don’t know you’re in my dreams And everything I dream belongs to me, I’m weak You don’t know what to believe The only thing I need is sleep to feel relieved, I’m weak Nowhere is as distant and far as where I am right now, The abyss of my heart when I’m wide awake Being with someone is hard when you’ve never learned to talk, I rather stay apart when I’m wide awake You don’t know the reason why there is no end, No matter at which point I am you don’t know how much I’ve cried So don’t expect that I will answer when you’re asking me to die Nothing inside of me is alive I’m rejecting myself, desire slowly dies when I’m wide awake I crucify truth, I’m sentenced to lie Feelings have no more weight in my life when I’m wide awake Every discomfort I fell into The more I became lonely, the more insecure This is a wasteland to us all and I’m the leader to our downfall An endless spiral The reason why I can’t stay awake Is because I can not bear reality anymore No one wants to be sad all the time Feelings have no more weight in my life when I’m wide awake Nothing inside of me is alive except me in my mind, Feeling broken inside when I’m wide awake Nowhere is as distant and far as where I am right now, I rather stay apart when I’m wide awake
8.
Someone wants to be happy and kind breaking habits, Designed by an unconscious mind when we’re all asleep We’re strong and alive, defining the time Honest and anytime ready to rise when we’re all asleep The glow of darkness floods the eyes Not a single beam of light in this never ending night Only dreams, no wrong, no right Everything that’s unrelated becomes one Being free means being asleep And feeling what everyone believes in And letting them see how they need to be And what they need to feel To be able to see let everything go, there is no alone To be able to dream what is known, let everything go, carry on It’s not much what it takes to keep the curtains closed A state of mind that was once supposed To be the furthest of them all Is finally reached and controlled by the deepest thoughts From blindfolded to comfortably on hold Somewhere is a place where it’s safe And everything is okay, no more fear and no more hate When we’re all asleep being alone but not separated Talking does not mean suffocating when we’re all asleep To be able to see let everything go, there is no alone To be able to dream what is known, let everything go, carry on, Let everything go, there is no return, just a tomorrow Something inside of me is alive I’m accepting myself, Desire slowly rises when you’re all asleep I honour the truth, experience love Feelings have more and more weight in my life When you’re all asleep
9.
If you ever try to love me You will feel that I feel nothing Everything I’ve said means one thing You should better think about what love means I have no expectations Of this relationship I just want to sleep and dream And die when time has come You have expectations That I can’t fulfill And I feel really bad for this So I run away and isolate myself And refuse any help Who decides what’s wrong and right I’m wasting time, yours and mine I haven’t even tried to change my mind I’m feeling happy being empty What a beautiful ending Constantly thinking about Since I am twenty I promise I’ll stay here And do my best not to disappear But I’m a lost cause Inside a lost world I swear to god, no I swear to you I’m still a lost soul If you love me you should sleep now You will feel that I feel something Everything I say I mean it Only in your dreams I’m someone
10.
Daymare 03:10
After all that we’ve been through You said you would save me Nothing happened, never believed it would hurt so badly When I try to sleep, every dream goes deeper Distance is growing between you and me Everything is okay, nothing can hurt me now I’ve been staying up for too long, I drown in Daydreams, my remedy, my shelter, my own hell Stay here, to save me from the pain they feed me It’s too late to make me feel the same feelings I felt back then, hurry up, take me in It still hurts Since you’re gone I’m fading out Every dream gets clearer Nowhere to go, no will to fight to walk on further Time is slipping through my hands I can’t feel my body, I can’t speak, I can’t think There is fear, only fear Tell me am I okay, tell me that I’m not hurt I’ve been staying up for too long, I drown in I’m so sick of feeling thoughts Go to sleep, never leave Overthinking fucking hurts Stay awake, start to dream I’ll come back, maybe someday You have said, on that day You have left, never came back to me As you promised, I tried to change But I couldn’t, I was honest Other problems made me lonely I’m staying up for too long, I’m lost in
11.
{} 04:14
I’m afraid, I’m not enough What you need is not what I can give I’ll never reach this ‘how you want me to be’ The perfect place does not exist Days go by and I still bleed stitching up what I can’t fix From cut to cut it’s death or dream Worry is the knife that leaves those scars across my skin This line between death and dream is paperthin I’m tied to overthinking everything I’m not enough and I’m so sorry that I am like this It’s like I live for everyone but not for me When I sleep I’m rather chasing other dreams I’m throwing up as much I can, so I can breathe I taste the pain right on my tongue, it helps me to speak Just know that I will remember Everything I’ve heard Sometimes I laugh, but in the end I’m not okay I promised you to love But I don’t know how to feel I just drift above when I try to sink Just know that I will remember That it’s not your fault It’s all on me, I just pretend to be okay I promised you true love but I don’t know how to feel Everything just hurts when I try to think Leave me forever when I fall asleep Leave me forever, please don’t look back Leave me forever when I fall asleep Leave me forever, leave me forever The pain underneath my skin turns my dream into a nightmare My feelings have died here I’ll bury everything underneath my skin Turn my life into a nightmare I get used to slowly dying with pain there is no worry

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This piece was recorded by ourselves at Werkall
and mixed and mastered by Janosch Riemann 2020/2021.
All Songs by I Saw Daylight.
Lyrics by Eugen Troschin.
Artwork by Jessica Svartvit.

I Saw Daylight are
Eugen - Vocals
Manuel - Guitar
Kurt - Guitar
Stefan - Bass
Laura - Drums

Release: 29 Oktober 2021
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I Saw Daylight Ulm, Germany

I SAW DAYLIGHT sind fünf Menschen, die nicht nur einen Proberaum, sondern auch ihr Leben miteinander teilen. Seit 2011 spielen ISD jede Show, die ihnen möglich ist: sowohl auf europaweiten Touren als auch im JUZE um die Ecke. ISD stehen für pathetische Authentizität fernab jedes Manierismus, die von ihnen live wie auf Platte ungehemmt gelebt wird und allen Zuhörenden spürbar ist. ... more

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